6 Months Ago

There was once a time when these pictures made me feel nauseous.

When I thought of Scotlin's birth it felt like there was a 1,000 pound weight slowly trying to crush my heart.

It made my head pound.

The pounding reminded me of all I could hear in the Operating Room;

the rythm of Scotlin's failing heartbeat.

Pounding, Pounding, Pounding in my ears.

A large medical team worked for long, long hours to deliver Scotlin,

and I thought for a minute,

during the process, one of us was not going to make it.

I just prayed it would be me.

I vividly remeber the feeling, and knowledge that I am a daughter of God swept over me, and in that moment of complete uncertainty and fear, I was not alone.

In the days that followed, even though I was confined to a tiny, cold hospital room in what was at the time an unknown place, I was not left alone.

I was given a blessing.

A Priesthood blessing.

That I would

'never be left comfortless. That even holy Angels would be there to comfort me. To lift, and to carry me, and to help me carry the burden and pass this test.'

Never have I had more Faith, and Realization that our Heavenly Father is there.

He will not leave us comfortless.

I could not have done it by myself.

I was not alone.

I have 100% confidence in telling you that HE is Real. HE is There, and HE Lives.

Today this precious boy is six months old.

He has a never-ending smile.

He is sweet, and snuggly. Giggly. And bright.

Scotlin's sweet little face is a daily reminder to me that no matter how hard our trials seem, and even when we feel like we may not be able to lift the burden,

HE IS THERE.

HE IS LISTENING, and

HE WILL COMFORT US.

My heart no longer hurts.

It sings.

It is bursting with pride and joy.

Scotlin lights up our lives.

He is our best little buddy.

It's truly amazing to think about how we all began. And how much potential we have to become whatever we want to be.

For me, personally, I don't know how I could go through this life without help and guidance from a Heavenly Father. Without that knowledge that I am a daughter of God, and without Priesthood Power.

I need the help.

I'm grateful I have it.

I can't do it alone.

That same power that helped me six months ago is in my home.

It blesses my family and continues to bless my life every day.

Scotlin will learn from the example of his Father, and from those who love him, that he too can have that power, and it can continue to bless him throughout his life just as it has since the day he was born.

We love you Scotlin!

We are so glad you are here,

and you are the happiest baby boy!